What is this feeling?

Sorry it has been so long since I have posted!  Here it goes...

Lately I have been feeling empty, not the hungry type of empty, but the empty in my being or soul.  I feel almost like there is a piece of me missing, and I am searching and searching, but can't seem to find what it is.  This usually happens around "that time of the month" when my emotions are flaring, but this has been happening for quite sometime.  I have no motivation to do anything, I don't feel like helping around the house, I don't feel like working, I don't want to do my school work, I don't want to help make dinner, I don't feel like doing my devotions and list goes on.  I used to be the girl who would get up at 6:30 in the morning, do school and go for a run.  I felt so good!  I keep asking myself "what happened?" and "wheres the joy?"  I feel as if over the past few years I have become so lazy and self centered.  I can't stop thinking about the things that I want to do, and the issues that I have.  Everyday is a constant battle between my flesh and mind.  I want to do one thing, but my body is saying no.  I feel as if something else is controlling me and I am just the puppet, no matter how hard I try to get up early or how hard I try to do my daily chores with a happy heart, I cannot seem to do it.  I am weary and weak and I know why...  I am not spending the time I need with God.  I am not getting up and fighting against my selfish desire to stay in bed one more hour.  All I want to do is break free, free from the chains that hold me far away from what I long most, to be with Him!  I want to sit at his feet and hear him speak to me.  I want to know that I can trust him with every aspect of my life, but most importantly I want to change.  I want to be the happy 15 year old who all she wanted to do was serve her family, and others who needed it.  I don't want to focus on me, but focus on the one who made me.

-Lauren